things you should watch:

CSI (series 11)

crazy new series, it's amazing and also amazingly creepy - episode 4 (I think) Sqweegle is the worst. nearly had nightmares.

also, greg is a hottie:




other than watching csi, criminal minds, without a trace, and listening to Someone Like You by Adele and Noah and the Whales' new song, L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N, along with some old classics, and planning 'birthday party music', i've been sorting my portfolio. which means spending a ridiculous amount of money i don't even have, on mountboard, which i am now the master of cutting, and A3 prints. my portfolio looks cool though.

i have an interview on march 3rd and to say i'm dreading it would be an understatement. i'm half like "i can do this, yeah!" and half "shit they are going to just say no straight off". i'm not really sure what i'd do if i don't get a place somewhere, i'm a trooper though so whatever happens, i'll come back fighting, haha.

gonna keep doing some online portfolio for MMU, i leave you with this:

Happy February!

It's already Ferbuary! This month will be good. I have a lot of stuff to do - portfolio needs making - exercise needs to begin properly) - emailing some bands, etc - keep the leftover sessions up and running and so on.

I'm really struggling with working out what exactly to put in portfolio. I have no idea. I'm terrified my tutor will go through what I've chosen so far and say no to all, but maybe 1 photo, that'd be awful. It's really hard when I look around at peoples photos, and how amazing they are, and they I look at mine and just go blank. And then I get annoyed and then the feeling passes and I go through the same cycle again. Maybe I should just not go on flickr for a while. Or stop caring what people think. Probably both.

At the minute I'm hoping to get hold of people just for bog standard portraits, both film and digital, and to start photographing at gigs...I've been lucky enough to get a few contacts so this month I'm going to make the most and email them, and when I get ideas, I'm going to do it. I don't care if it means using myself or even my sisters for the picture because I just really need to start working harder this year with my work. I want to be proud of my portfolio and be proud when I say I study Photography.

Gonna go because my heads hurting, i'm in need of soothing music and i need to plan for this month. :)

XXXX

p.s here is a song i love listening to at the minute: